"The Time Has Come," the Walrus Said, "To Talk of Many Things."

The sky is falling…

No, but I am very surprised that I am finally starting my internship. It’s a small internship but I am able to learn a whole bunch about technical writing.

I realize it sounds like I’m bragging a little bit, and maybe I am, but I am trying to decide what I want to do for the rest of my life and I’m starting to realize that finding the perfect job is what’s preventing me from making any decision at all.

Maybe that’s why it’s taking me six years to finish my bachelors. Maybe?

What does the perfect job entail?

1. Good money
2. Security
3. Passionate work
4. Meaningful work
5. Flexible hours just in case I decide to get married and have kinds
6. A set schedule for dependability
7. The ability to travel (whether it’s for work or not)
8. Good bosses
9. Not telling people what to do
10. Not contradicting myself…. That would be awesome

You see my problem? I want it all and I can’t have it all, I just can’t.

So, last week I decided to go to the career center to find out who I was and what I want to do with my life… I mean, maybe I’m missing something.

Mrs. Career Center (because I don’t want to enclose real information) claimed that she believed I wasn’t ready to find out who I was because there were too many things in my life influencing me one way or another. She told me to take a test just to find out how much I needed to “work” on myself.

The next meeting she claimed I wasn’t as bad as she thought. To give you an idea of how I scored, good is 0-10 and bad is 45-65, I scored about a 30… right on the border.

The packet I needed to complete (which I haven’t yet completed) is a series of reevaluations of statements I agreed or disagreed with and rephrasing my statements to make them positive.

One of the statements I agreed strongly with is “There are several fields of study or occupations that fit me, but I can’t decide on the best one.” They want me to change it to something like, “There are several fields of study or occupations that fit me and I will find the best one for me.”

Moral, I wake up every morning and say, I will find a man… I mean I will find a great field of study and stick to my decision. That is, after I finish the packet and take the four part, incredibly comprehensive test… this is why this internship is so good, I will be able to gather enough information about the technical writing profession to decide whether or not it is a positive fit for me.

We’ll see what happens once I pull myself together.